I sighed for the nth time… heart was racing and breathing was erratic that I thought I would be suffocated or choke myself… I licked my already dried lips wet… both of my palms were starting to sweat as I continued to battle with myself if I should say it or not…
And as I turned my head to the side, I saw the man who was the reason of my uneasiness… my brows started to furrow as I saw him smiled at me… and with that smile I almost got swayed from my decision that I had been thoroughly thinking of for the past several weeks…
But that was just it… I can’t back out now… for I know very well that our relationship was all long dead… just what that one character said in the movie we watched together recently, we were just living up now as ‘best roommates’… talking about living under the same house, eating, watching, doing things together and lastly, sleeping together… literally…
I thought him, being considerate when it comes to me was enough… being the sweet guy the way I knew him, that he just wanted to not hurt me in any possible way he could do but for the sake of keeping our relationship alive and in flame, being just sweet, gentle and considerate weren’t just enough..! Coz this girl needed at least something to spice up the relationship..!
And I think he won’t be the guy that could give me the thrill that I have wanted… maybe we’re just not really meant for each other… I don’t want to tell and force him to become someone that he was not and definitely do something that he doesn’t do. And I just can’t endure this dead relationship… I’m still young… I should be enjoying my youth with someone who has the same mind as me… I should be happy with the things I am doing…
“Come on let’s go to sleep…”
And my thoughts were immediately cut off as soon as he said those words and stood up from the couch we were seated at… I was then left watching him as he turned off the television and slightly glanced at me before he picked up on his tracks towards ‘our’ bedroom… and that was it…
Forgetting the heaviness I was feeling inside, I immediately followed him… and before he could enter our room, I stopped him as I grabbed his wrist…
He soon stopped with his tracks and turned around to look at me with a confused look on his face…
“What’s wrong…?”
He said as he tilted his head to the side… aigoo… I’ll definitely miss those simple cute gestures that he involuntarily does… and before he could ask me again, I immediately beat him to it…
“Let’s break-up Jiyong…”
Straight and simple…
And there I felt him stiffened… his face flinched a bit before his gaze immediately locked with mine…
I felt a little tug inside my chest but even before my guilt could take my decision back, I let go of his wrist and looked away… I could still feel his hard gaze on me… he never spoke… didn’t even move a bit on his spot…
I gulped down the forming painful lump inside my throat… ignoring the wild racing of my heart, I prepared myself from telling him every reason of my surrender…
“As cliché this maybe… but really, Jiyong… it’s not you… it’s me…”
I courageously picked up my gaze back to him… my jaw clenched upon seeing him still looking at me with those unreadable eyes… I ignored it… and instead continued with what I am supposed to tell him…
“I just… I’m just… You’re kind, sweet, and so understanding… you’re the perfect guy a girl can ask for… but Jiyong… it bores me. This relationship bores me that I can’t even look forward to something whenever I’m with you because we always do the same boring routine everyday… and it’s really suffocating sometimes… I need some thrill… something to look forward to… something I could do with you without any restraints and with ease… this… this relationship is just too perfect… you’re too perfect that it bores me… I’m sorry…”
I let out a long sigh right after I said the last word… my brows slowly met as I quickly tore my gaze off from him… and soon, silence immediately enveloped the two of us…
And after a while of an excruciating silence, I heard him let out a deep breath… I raised my head up to see him and still, that unexplainable expression was plastered on his face…
“That thrill… what is it…? What specifically that thrill you’re talking about…?”
His voice was deep and stern… I almost feared the sound of it that I was a bit taken aback and forgot to answer his question… but first of all… why the hell was he asking me what that ‘thrill’ was…?!
“Jiyong… I… that…”
I stuttered... I looked down on the wooden floor of our apartment pondering the right words to say…
“Sex… is it…?”
And just then my eyes immediately widen as I looked back to him… his face was still blank, eyes started to become dark and I knew by then that he’s starting to be mad… with that, I took a step back… forced myself not to lose my cool… I just want to end this smoothly and peacefully…
Ignoring what he just said, I turned around and began to walk away from him…
“I think I’ll just go and spend the night at Bom’s… I’ll drop by tomorrow to get my things…”
But before I could even reach a couple of feet away from him… I felt him tugged on my hand and roughly pulled me back towards him… my eyes widen once again, startled, I looked back and about to shout at him yet got silence upon seeing that same dark expression on his face…
“Who says you can go…?”
He almost whispered between his gritted teeth… and with that, my heart began to race wildly again… never before I saw him this displeased… and seeing him like that scared me…
“What are you talking about…? I said this relationship is over Jiyong… didn’t you understand…? I… give… up…”
I emphasized every word… but doing so, was probably the greatest mistake I have done…
A smirk slowly appeared on his lips… and before I could even figure out what was happening… I am already pressed against his chest… he was looking down at me as his face was just inches away from me… my arms were limply on both of my sides as one of his arm was securely wrapped around me while his other hand was on the back of my head, gripping on my hair tightly that it started to hurt…
I was totally flustered… surprised… and scared…
What happened to the angelic Jiyong that I know…?!
And upon seeing the horror in my face… his expression slowly softened… and I thought he had already realized what he was doing… but I was wrong…
“Baby… you’re not going anywhere… not until I told you so… but that won’t ever happen…”
His tone was dangerous and I can’t help but feel shivers with every word that escaped his mouth… gaaaahd… and since when… was he this mad and hot at the same time…?
The grip on my hair became tighter…forcing my face towards him more but I continued to resist… my hands began to pull on his shirt… pounded on his sides but he kept his hold on me tight… I flinched in pain as he kept on tugging my hair…
“Jiyong..! Stop it..! You’re hurting me…!”
And just then, I saw another smirk on his lips… and before I could even flinch again from the pain… he had already crushed his lips with mine… I immediately tasted the blood from the rough collision of our lips…
Terrified, my gaze locked with his only to see pure lust in his eyes…
He kept my head in place… pulled on my hair to tilt my head to the side and began to kiss me forcefully…
Clamping on his back, my hands curled on the fabric of the white shirt he was wearing… my toes were tip-toed on the floor, as he carried half of my weight and kept my body closely against his…
My eyes slowly closed as air gradually left my lungs… I couldn’t breathe properly as his kiss won’t give me enough time to catch my breath… he was like someone who hasn’t ate for days as he possessively feasted on my mouth… he squeezed on my hair, making me yelp and used that chance to easily slip in his tongue inside my mouth…
The soft flesh of his tongue immediately found mine… I could taste blood and a tinge of mint from our kiss… I could hear the sound of our mouth lapping on each other as he continuously suck me out of my life…
I should be more scared… he was not the Jiyong that I knew… I should be continuously pound on him to make him stop… I shouldn’t like what he was doing yet instead… apart from the roughness and the forceful ministrations he was doing… I can’t help but to be aroused… I can’t help but to kiss him back… give his mouth the same treatment he was giving mine… and I can’t help but to start feeling the forming warmth in my abdomen… the aching sensation in between my legs and the next thing I realized was, I’m beginning to feel the dampness inside my panties…
He sucked on my tongue… oh god… I didn’t know he was this good in kissing… his tongue freely played inside my mouth that I felt it everywhere inside… licking every corners… leaving his mark in the depth of my mouth… I began letting out moans between our kiss… and it drove him more to desperately reach deeper…
He slipped his thigh between my legs… stroking it against my dripping warmth, making me wetter and achier than before… and as he did, I felt his hardness on one of my thighs… his burning lust was protruding its way out from the boxers he’s wearing… and damn… just feeling it against my thigh was just pure ecstasy…
My head felt so light… the next thing I heard was sound of a ‘pop’… only to realize that our never ending kiss miraculously found its end… I immediately felt the coldness brush against my already swollen lips… and if not for him holding my head and back, I might probably fell back as dizziness soon filled my entire being…
How could his kiss be that powerful…?
And even before I could recover from the vertigo brought by his kiss… I found myself being lifted and my body dangled as he carried me on his shoulder like a sack of rice…
I was panting… mind was a bit disoriented but upon seeing myself off the ground I immediately panicked… only to receive a hard slap against my butt… he casually walked us back our room… but even before he could completely enter, I gripped on the door frame, only to receive another painful slap on my bottom… I yelped in pain and he was successful from pulling me off from holding on to the door frame… he was really not holding back, even if it cost me pain… that my ass stung like hell…
“Yah..! Let go of me…! What are you doing..?!”
And as soon as I said those words… he roughly threw me on our bed… I immediately recovered from the fall and pushed myself out the bed… I managed to run across the room but even before I could reach the door… he tripped me with his leg…
A loud thud was heard as I collapsed on the carpeted floor… I winced and moaned in pain… I was on my stomach when I landed… I couldn’t get up quickly for my body started to hurt… I felt behind as he walked towards me…
I turned my head to the side to see him… he was still looking at me with that displeased look on his face… I was supposed to feel scared… damn me for not feeling it… for instead… I feel excited on what he was about to do…
He bent down… reached for the side of my face and caressed it… I pouted… how dare him to trip me..! I was about to kick him from behind… but he got hold of my ankle… he squeezed it hard before throwing it down…
He never said a word; instead he just slipped his arm below my waist and easily lifted me from the floor again…
I was not able to resist as my strength slowly left my body… my butt stuck out towards him and it didn’t escape for me to feel that hard bulge on his boxers and once again, I was thrown roughly on our bed… my feet stuck out on the edge of our bed as I sprawled on my stomach… like a frog that was ready to be dissected… I was about to roll my aching body only to be stopped as he climbed up on the bed and trapped my body between his legs as he sat on my back…
I kicked my legs… I just know I have to continue resisting… we’re supposed to break-up tonight..!
I flailed my hands, tried to reach him behind me but I had a hard time to do it as he kept my head down on the pillow with his hand… I felt him move behind me… his hand left my head for a second, but before I could even see what he was doing… he got both of my hands and pushed it over my head… my eyes widened upon seeing him tying his white shirt on my wrists…
“Jiyong..! No..! Don’t…! I don’t want this…!”
I thrashed on the bed… my pleas were ignored as soon as he completely tied my hands over my head… I felt him moved behind me again, only to feel his hands on my hips… pulling it up, sticking my ass up… my eyes widen, and I almost choke my heart out when he pulled my pajama pants down…
Cool air brushed along the cheeks of my ass… but coldness soon got replaced as I felt his hands caressing it… I tried to push my hips down to avoid his touch but he was smart enough to put two pillows under my abdomen to keep my ass up…
He crawled behind me… hovering over me…with only the fabric of his boxers restraining his hard dick to completely brush against my skin… he snuggled his head on the back of my head… he started kissing me on the side of my neck… licking my skin and sucking one portion making me feel hotter inside… I closed my eyes and lips parted as small moans escaped my lips…
He was dry humping me from behind… his war prick continued to brush against the cheeks of my butt…
He continued to lick the side of my neck… his hands slipped under me… trailed inside the shirt I was wearing… caressing my bare stomach… until he got hold of my breasts… I should’ve worn my bra… but even if I did… what help would it do against his divine hands…?
“Uhhh… Jiyoong…”
A loud moan escaped my lips when he painfully squeezed my breasts… I curled my hands on the fabric of his shirt… bit my lip from the pain as he started squeezing my nipples in between his fingers…
His lips trailed towards my ear… left wet kissed all over the side of my face… and another guttural moan escaped my lips when he bit on my earlobe…
“I love you…”
He huskily whispered against my ear as he once again squeezed my breasts… burying his cleanly trimmed nails on my skin… I could only bit on my lip… not minding to wound my lips more… for that was just truly a painful turn on…
He grabbed hold of my hair once again… forcing me to face the side and with that, he reached down and once again took my lips with his… for a while, we were back from having a tongue battle… he continuously grinded his hard-on against my ass… forcing my legs apart, he settled himself between…
“Uhhh… God…”
I moaned out after we broke from the kiss… I slumped down on the bed once again… giving him the complete freedom to continuously assault my body… I could feel the wetness in between my legs continued to drip… completely soaking my panties… I could feel my juices wetting the insides of my thighs…
He kneeled between my parted legs as he pulled my shirt up to my chest… my bare back was all exposed in his eyes… and the neck thing I felt was his wet lips against the skin of my back… I trembled… bit on my pillow, praying to myself for this unbearable pleasure to end…
I felt him suck on my back… his hands found themselves back to my breasts… massaging my bosoms, roughly…
He blew his warm breath along my flat back… trailed his kisses… marking me thoroughly until he reached my naked bottom…
I kept my head to the side, still biting on my pillow… I stared on the wall with my half lidded eyes… his hands came to caress my ass… and I thought he would be back to being gentle but I was wrong…
“Uh..!”
I yelped out loud and my body jumped a bit from the bed when once again he struck my butt before caressing it again… I started to thrash my body again but he still kept me down…
“It hurts…”
I whimpered… only to receive another slap… god..! Did he notice how turn on he was making me feel…?
And as if reading my mind… I felt his hand slipped between my legs… I gasped once he roughly cupped my dripping cunt… my eyes rolled back when he started caressing me… I moaned out loud before gritted my teeth…
“You’re f*cking wet baby…”
I heard him before I felt one of his fingers entered my aching hole… I stiffened, momentarily felt full not until he pulled his finger out… with that I cried out in protest…
“Do you want my finger inside baby…?” I could imagine him smirking behind me…
I could only cry my desire and with that another slap landed on my already stinging ass…
He reached for my clit and flicked it a bit making me tremble and squeezed my legs together but he kept his legs apart, stopping me from doing so…
“Do you want it or not…?” He sternly asked… continued to play with my clit making me to cry out in euphoria… I could feel the pillow bellow me started to get drenched…
“Please…” I struggled to let out…
“Please what…?” He said as he pinched my clit… and my body arched off the bed…
“Finger… I want it… uhhh… Jiyong… puh… lease…”
And just then another loud moan escaped my throat when three of his fingers brutally struggled to fit inside my dripping hole…tears formed inside my eyes as he began to FRUCK me with his fingers… I cried out my moans… closed my eyes and hands still balled tightly against the fabric of his shirt… I could hear the sound of his fingers going in and out of my cunt… I felt his other hand parted my butt cheeks more… and as if his fingers weren’t enough to drive me in insanity…
He dipped down between my legs… pulled my hips up more as he started to lap up my pussy from behind…
“Oh… god… uhhh… Jiyong…!”
Incoherent words started to flood out from my mouth together with my moans… I couldn’t think straight anymore as he started to lick and finger FRUCK me at the same time…
I could hear the sound of his mouth as he sucked my dripping womanhood; his fingers began scissoring inside my hole, scraping my walls, pushing in deeper and harder each time I would cry out…
And I thought his tongue was just good in kissing not until I felt it probe the walls of my cunt… bringing me to the edge of my sanity I buried my face on my pillow and began to growl out my ecstasy… sweat trickled along my neck… tears continued to stream down my eyes as he fucked me with his tongue and fingers alternately… squeezing the nub of my womanhood to give me some small shocks whenever he won’t hear my moans…
And after a period of nothing but pure ecstasy… my mind completely went blank as I saw white… my stomach churned… my abdomen constricted painfully as I felt hot liquid burst out from my core…
I pulled my head up as I cried out an audible sound… mouth was gaping with no sound coming from it… and after a while, my inner thighs began to wobble that he had to hold my legs and keep it down…
I collapsed on my bed… spent and still in delirium while he continued to lap up on my juices… cleaning the mess I caused myself… his fingers still stroking my insides, driving me out from the tremors of my orgasm…
I panted… eyes were still closed… I felt him moved again… his hand gripped on my hair and forced me to face him… and as I was about to open my eyes… his drenched fingers immediately slipped its way inside my mouth… making me choke a bit… he made me to taste my own juices… for a while, he thrust his fingers in and out of my mouth… holding on to my hair to keep me in place and once he withdrew his fingers I immediately coughed out but was soon halted when he crushed his lips with mine once again…
I wanted to hold him… yet he kept me restrained with his shirt still tied along my wrists… my shoulders ached from continuously being extended…
His sweaty chest came contact with my bare back. And as we were both drown in the bliss of our kiss… I felt him shifted once again…
His free hand reached for his boxers… freeing his hard dick… he kicked his boxers off and once again laid on top of me from behind… without breaking our kiss… he settled himself between my legs again…
“Mmmmhp-Uhhh….!”
I managed to break out from our kiss when he roughly thrust himself inside me from behind… he parted his legs some more to accommodate himself between my legs… his hands trailed down on my hips… securely holding me there, he began to pistol me with his hard deep thrusts…
How could it be so painful and arousing at the same time…?! I might have probably completely lost my mind…!
His huge dick scraped against the wall of my pussy… probably hitting my cervix because of his powerful and desperate thrusts…
He didn’t let me to adjust as he quickly drilled himself inside me… his balls slapped against the back of my thighs…
My body wildly got drilled on the bed that I had to extend my arms over my head more for me not to crash on the headboard… he rode me like a wild rodeo... slapping my already abused ass…
He leaned down, still thrusting his hips roughly, burying himself more inside the pits of my cunt… the sound of our juices leaking from me mixed with our labored moans filled our entire room and may have probably filled our entire apartment…
“You’re… f*cking… mine…”
He sternly said between his hard thrusts… clearly making his point that I could never walk out from our relationship… but seriously, how could I even do that if I know right after this I won’t be able to walk for a couple of days…
“Oh God Dara…”
He repeatedly moaned out my name before he grabbed hold of my breasts… roughly massaged it as he bit on my shoulder… I was a bit thankful that I was still wearing a shirt, lessening the pain brought by his teeth…
I couldn’t even meet with his thrust… I could only limply lie there, with him doing all the work…
And soon… I once again felt the familiar warmth forming inside my abdomen… his thrusts hasten some more and I could feel him expanding inside me… stretching me with all he give… riding me like a dog in heat…
A loud cry was heard from the both of us… his arms immediately wrapped along my waists… hugging me tight against his body as he released his last full thrust… my body tensed as I released a massive wave of warm juice… soaking both of our inner thighs…
I felt his warm seeds shot right through my womb… he muffled his cry as he once again bit on my shoulder… and for a while, he stayed stiffened against my back… before after a while he was able to release some small pumps… driving himself out of his orgasm… emptying every of his seed out inside my womb…
We both collapsed on the bed… panting… wasted… and satisfied…
He was still buried inside me… our bodies still trembling from that one steamy sex we had gone through… and soon I felt our mixed juices streamed down my inner thighs when he finally pulled himself out from me…
I just laid there with my eyes closed… too tired to move… with my legs still wide open… and body aching from all the assault I got from my supposed to be break-up…
I felt him freed me off from my restraint… probably my wrists were all bruised yet I didn’t care… that was the first time in our three-year relationship I felt so alive… yet physically tired at the same time… who was he all this time…?! I didn’t know he could do such thing and God… it was mind blowing…
He lifted me and carefully laid me on my back… I feel so sore… yet I feel so satiated…
I felt him laid beside me… wrapped us both with the blanket… he collected me in his arms, hugging me tightly as he brushed off my hair out from my face…
“Dara-ah…”
He whispered as he caressed… I slowly opened my eyes and saw him looking down at me with a gentle expression on his face… the angelic face of the Jiyong I know…
“I’m sorry baby… I really don’t want to hurt you but I lost it when you said you’ll break-up with me… you don’t really mean it right…? Please don’t leave me… I love you so much… ”
I was left dumbstruck with what he said… he lost it…?
I looked at his pleading features for a while before a smile slowly formed on my lips…I thought I knew everything about him already, yet I was wrong… and I thought he’ll forever be the same perfect boring guy that he was…
I snuggled my face on chest, wrapping my arms around his frame… his hand caressed the back of my head… so gentle, far from what he did earlier…
“Just don’t tell me again that you’re going to leave me… for I don’t know what more hell I could give you…”
I felt him tug on my hair a bit as he told me those words with a tinge of anger in his voice… I shuddered from his words… supposed to be scared by his twisted mind yet the smile on my face grew wider…for I can’t help but to look forward to our next break-up…